15 minutes

Just another 15 minutes from my annual leave. Not just happy feeling appears, but weird also. I never take 10 days leave before in this year. That's why maybe, it feels kind of strange.

Like most of years in my life, I don't have any plans for the Christmas and New Year. Maybe it runs in the famliy, my parents don't have any ritual holiday plans every year. Just eat and stay home at New Year's eve. If we get lucky, we will have tat night without a fight. I don't like my new year's eve, because most of it, they fight to each other. I hate it so much.

Maybe after I married and have a new family, I'll try to change all those things. For a start have a holiday plan and trip. Don't have to be far, I think having a vacation plan is a very good thing. It will energize ur energy, and will warm your relationship with your wives and family.

Yes, I will get married soon. Early February 2007. Just thinking of it, I get a chill suddenly. I only have 1 month left, to live as a 'free' man. I'm really scared of this marriage things. Maybe because of my parents experience, which don't have a happy marriage after all. I'm affraid that my marriage will have the same result like my parent's. It's been more than 14 years of my relationship w/ my girlfriend, so barely I have a warm feeling towards her. Everything is seemed so boring, and nothin special. But nevertheles, she's a good girl. A lot of inner strength. And I think I will take my chances to live my rest entire life with her.

Wish me luck.